A decade

It never is easy to say "It's been a decade." But it has, unthinkably, been one. When I'm trying to sum it up now, I come up with these..

My life got to be typical - hence my sense of humor got to be mundane; My family coheres; My schedule multiplied; My happiness simplified; My passion focused; My dream afloat still; Youth slipping through my fingers; My time therefore valued; My ignorance signaled; hence My thirst for knowledge billowed; My quest for freedom echoes; My romance hovers; My solitude deepened; and hence My soul distilled; My skin wrinkled; My silence refined; My love mellowed.

From my life you went away but in my heart you stayed behind. From my schedule you vanished, but in my contemplation you have always hovered. In my adolescence you painted, on my bone marrow you tattooed. In the memory torrent of you I was always trapped, but you may also say in the reminiscence of you I always linger. From the corners of my eyes you were drops of tears, but in the bottom of my heart you have always been the definition of true love.

I love you, everything else is secondary.

December 2013

驀然. 默然

你見, 或者不見我, 我就在那裡, 不悲不喜
你念, 或者不念我, 情就在那裡, 不來不去
你愛, 或者不愛我, 愛就在那裡, 不增不減
你跟, 或者不跟我, 我的手就在你手裡, 不捨不棄
來我的懷裡, 或者, 讓我住進你心裡
默然    相愛    寂靜      歡喜

<<非誠勿擾>>


十個百個年年月月
竟這就晃過去了
驀然. 默然.

感情. 情感

人生之中, 知識與感情同是極重要元素。分別就在於, 知識涵養學了熟了, 就是你的, 實實在在。可是感情傾了談了, 到底可能也不是你的, 飄飄泊泊。

到了感情最澎湃的時候, 我們總是會找一些傾注的對象、位置。讓自己的感情無限放大, 盲目地將宏觀的世界盡情縮細。這種所謂感情, 不過是為了自己的心。我們等等, 在無數的失敗之中, 有多少次是同時為了彼此著想, 一往而深, 卻可想而知。

為何"感情"可喚作"情感", 而"知識"不曾被喚作"識知"? 也許因為感情本身就是一件可能會隨時隨地完全顛倒的事。

寒夜清空, 這年的十一月。